Recently I found myself doubting myself, my physical being. And it was awful. I landed in my husband’s arms crying, asking if how I looked was okay.
I have always been thin. For the life that I have known that has been my genetic makeup. With being thin people have always felt the need to comment on my size. For the record, it’s uncomfortable to have people bring up your physical attributes as if they are appropriate for social conversation. They are not.
I have never felt truly offended by these comments until recently. As of late, I have had a VERY casual acquaintances point blank accuse me of losing weight with a look of disgust on their face. Somehow I felt I was in the wrong in this scenario. I immediately jumped in to describe how I had a surgery a year ago and have had difficulty with gaining the weight back and yada yada yada.
The comments have only continued from there. It has made me start doubting my decisions and myself. I value my health and well being and take pride in taking care of myself. Lately though, I have been making less healthy food decisions in hopes that I may pack on a little more weight. I realize how ridiculous that is, but I can’t help considering it.
I am writing this not to rant (I know it may not seem like that), but to ask for us all to think about what our words and actions do to others. We are creating a society that makes people feel better about themselves when they are putting down others. This is not okay.
Living with our own self-doubts is enough. Rather than pointing out to others what you find inadequate in them, try lifting them up with pointing out the positives. It would be a much nicer world for us all to live in if we did this.
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Oh Erin, I’m so sorry to hear that, and I hate that it got you down! I just wish people would realize that everyone is different and everyone SHOULD be different. The important thing is to be healthy and happy. ❤ ❤
I hate that it got me down too, which is why I felt I needed to write this. I shouldn’t be the one that feels bad about other peoples rude comments. And I completely agree with you! The differences we all possess are what makes the world interesting and beautiful.
You are absolutely right! I’m someone who has obsessed over my physical self for the past 10 years now. Wishing to be thinner, always feeling judged by others. It isn’t fun. I have often been jealous of your figure; but I have to remind myself that I am Christina, not Erin. It’s hard though…I digress.
Oh Christina, you are such a beautiful person inside and out. Truly. I know that may seem cliche, but I am honestly, constantly in awe of the awesome you possess. Take pride in the amazing person you are.